So why is it that I sit down to write what should be a positive entry with a heavy heart? I have no idea whats up with me...all I did was go to the gym, hang out a bit , talk to drew for a while and then I came home. Maybe I'm just stressed out with school...I don't know...But when I got online and drew only talked to me about todays Dominic and then said he was going to bed. Which I understood because it was late.
I just wish we could've talked more...I should've made more time to talk tonight I realize, but still...sometimes I wish he was just really wanting to talk to me like I am for him some days.
Who knows maybe I just miss those nights where he talked my ear off until 3am.
....or maybe its because I miss him. I do. I miss him alot. especially the sense of him wanting me....and not in 'that' way....but just excited to talk to me in general. I'm starting to wonder if I'm getting boring or predictable after 1 yr and 5 months.
I think sometimes a gril justs wants to feel wanted by her boyfirend, even when he's far away.
Maybe I'm just to sensitive.
I don't know what to feel I guess.
Thats all for this batch...I feel its enough to stare at:D
PS: look closely at that ice...I caught water mid air in front of a heart shaped hole..I was so geeked!
Had a blast
Got 2 Shirt, Necklace, 3 Mangas, kickass hat, and the new Fall Out Boy Cd!
I started playing guild wars today. God, I'm so noob it hurts...seriously, I think I might be bleeding. Lol. Kai any pointers?
I took some kick ass drama pictures today for Jackies big idea! ^_____^ editing is gonna be a bitch though.
Thats all I got.
Oh! my cars gone to hell , there may be no hope. New car shopping is a maybe.
Yes, I watched Step By Step,
NOW DON'T CHEAT, it makes it funnier! What it gives you is a soundtrack to your the movie of your life!
Opening Credits: “Death of Seasons” By AFI
Okay…that’s too cool, my life movie rocks.
Waking Up: “Flavor of the Weak” By American Hi-Fi
So apparently, I have a bf that doesn’t appreciate me as I wake up.
First Day at School: “The Sun” By Maroon 5
This is just too cool! The lyrics are “walking home after school…fresh dirt under my fingernails.”
Falling in Love: “My Unfortunate Erection (Chips Lament)” By
There are no words to describe how funny this is.
Breaking Up: “Take Me or Leave Me” By RENT
Okay, first chip, now this, its just too good! If only the other person was a guy, this would be a perfect breakup song.
Prom: “Wind It Up” By Gwen Stefani
My movie prom scene rocks! Me and my buds shaking it to Stefani.
Life's Okay: “Not Falling Apart” By Maroon 5
“I don’t mind floating in the water, no one ever notices me, as I play under the waves.”
Mental Breakdown: “Chapter One” By Lifehouse
“What happens when all your dreams are lying on the ground? Do you pick up the pieces all around?”
Driving: “Spray Cheese” By Jim Gaffigan.
Apparently in my movie, I drive around to standup comics!
Flashback: “Come Together” The Beatles
I remember now …how I took on that flattop; my movie totally has a monster in it.
Getting Back Together: “Everybody’s Fool” By Evanescence
I yell at my lover for not being real, and tell them I don’t love them…and then we totally get back together. Movie perfect.
Wedding: “Boogie Wonderland” By Brittany Murphy
So my wedding is going to have a kick ass dance scene in which everyone joins in!
Birth of Child: “Because You Live” By Jesse McCartney
“Because you live, and breathe… there are twice as many stars in the sky” So cute and corny!
This is pretty cool. “...you crossed that line you can’t go back, tell me how does it feel now?!”
Death Scene: “Hurt” By Christina Aguilera
Okay, listening to this song and thinking of someone singing to me….makes for a kick ass death scene song. I’d be crying at my movie.
Funeral Song: “Goodbye to You” Michelle Branch
You cannot make this crap up! “Goodbye to you, goodbye to everything that I knew.”
End Credits: “Gentleman” By Teddy Geiger
“I was blinded by the lights I saw reflecting in their eyes , it blinded me from the sea of everybody's smiles.” Well this movie is totally awesome! The OST may be a little poppy, but I think its perfect!
It really doesn't look good on me.
Sometimes you just need slapped in the face, and I had it.
I think I got it now.
Stop tormenting with your good tasting Coffee that I can't afford!
With that out of the way
I never dreamt it'd be this way
I lost any chance for me to say
To say that I miss you Grandmas Really Thin Pancakes. I miss making dirt Pizza (goldish clay dirt was the cheese).To say that I love you Never ending story even though Jessie made me watch you. Your eyes, I can't hide from your eyes, Grams. The ones that aren't working so hot right now. I'm sorry I make excuses because I dont wanna be on the phone forever. I'm sorry that I never make it out to see you, when I should be seeing you once or twice a week. I dont want you to ever go. I want you to see my wedding day, and Corey's Graduation, Jessies induction to the FBI, Josh's first CD. I know that probably wont happen, but I'm gonna keep hoping that it does. If you have to go, Im going to cry, but somehow , I'll know that you understand, that I understand.
I'm rather spry. After writing that, and stealing lyrics from Amber Pacific, I feel better. For I am ShaRiku, garudian of overpriced Cheesey Writing And Lime Chapstickery. Seriously though, when is someone gonna find me one of those, I'm at a loss.
Do you ever think that your not good at something boys and girls? Well thats okay, we all do...and when that happens, just breathe! becuase then you can be good at breathing. Instead of being not good at sports, drawing, school, dancing, autorepair,singing, midgetossing, photography, dog grooming, groveling, sewing, self piercing, or emoscity. Just Breathe! Although you'll never get a trophy.
I've come to the conclusion that I am a lazy fuck And that I'd like to walk around in a trenchcoat and sunglasses to make someone laugh. I think its a funny image. At least it'd make people say. "What the hell was that all about?!".
In Conclusion, Do not put all your eggs into other person's shoe while calling the kettle balck. It's just not good form.
The Staff of Riku